Fashion/lifestyle blog about my life

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Finding Purpose

A month later and I'm back babes. Took me a month, but I swear this post has been sitting in my drafts for weeks. I know I'm only 21 years old, almost 30 at heart and this is the point in life where I'm not sure about anything. Everything is moving fast and slow at the same time. Some people are in college, some working and others not doing anything. I already had the "not doing anything phase" so I'm over that. I feel like I wasted a lot of time not doing anything but then again I didn't really grasp until now how fast your youth goes away. I can't stop thinking or planning. My mind is constantly planning; planning dates, planning my paychecks, planning my future and this shit called life is hard. It's hard figuring out what you want to do with your life or what's meaningful enough to pursue. I think 2019 was the year I finally figured out what I want at least for now considering my mind is constantly evolving. For starters, I finally shared my blog with everyone in 2019 which as of right now is my greatest accomplishment of the year. As you all may know if you read my previous posts, this blog has been in the works since I was in high school meaning when I was 17, so it took me 4 years to finally let go of my fear and start publishing. I was so scared before wondering who would read what I post, but this was always something I wanted to do for myself and that's what really matters. Career wise, I have an idea of what I want but that's something to share later on. Once I turned 20, life starting moving fast, 12 months which I used to feel lasted forever now feels like it ends in 6. Everything is moving so fast and I had to get my shit together because let's be honest I have very expensive taste and my mom is not going to sustain my lifestyle forever. I guess this is a bit of an end of the year reflection that I am sharing, because this year I learned a lot and I am grateful for all the experiences that have taught me to mature and become the person I am today. I know I will only get better and yes a lot of people say that and are still in the same position from a year ago but I really believe something amazing is bound to happen to me and I can't wait to share it with all of you!
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